I met with an old friend yesterday afternoon and as any friend does, she asked how I was, how each of us were. The more we talked about it the more it upset me. Well we all know how I am so me being me...I kept my cool and changed the subject onto something safer. It has really been bothering me ever since...
We used to be so close. Together all the time, vacationing together, holidays were always so much fun. We have all been through a lot. A lot of crap that was hard to deal with, but we did. We dealt with it and moved on and things were hard but they were still good...we were all still ok, if anything everything that we went through made us closer.
Look at us now. We haven't spoke in a long time... I tried to be the bigger person to both of you. I put my foot in the door once and you both shut it, I will not do it again. We have all tried with you, tried to take you at your word, tried to trust you, tried to give you the benefit of the doubt but you have screwed us over every time. I'm not in the wrong here...we all aren't in the wrong. You know it, I know it, everybody knows it. Its just a bitch to admit that your wrong and everybody else was right. It's not like you have to make some big announcement or anything, you know that! Just make an effort...thats all you have to do. I know your miserable, I can see it, we all can. You can't even look us in the eyes. I mean I don't know what I would do without my family, and you've fucked over yours to the point that you would rather sneak out the back door than walk through the same room as us. It wouldn't be easy but nothing ever is. All you have to do is make an effort.
I hate this. I really do...
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